all i want today

is to speak to someone who understands the issue, be there for my family, & right at this very moment have one of my grandmother's perfect grilled cheese sandwiches (the ones she made me as a kid---that comfort food). but i can do/have none of it. feeling so very far away here in la while one of my life's greatest steel magnolias is in pain. and being so stoic for everyone else, thinking of everyone else. its all she knows.